Post by oakley jameson porter on Feb 19, 2013 17:31:57 GMT -5
feb 19th 2013,
[/i][/blockquote][/blockquote]so my therapist aka ash says maybe it would help if i actually wrote down what each of my personalities are. maybe it would help link them to the deep roots of why i truly am the way i am. the first step is admitting it so here goes... hi, i'm oakley porter a 21 year old and i have been living with two distinct personalities for 7 years... i've recently developed a third personality and i'm scared there's more...
OAKLEY: "easy, this is me, i am 21 years old. i am the kind baker from texas, i am quite softspoken and i get pushed around way too much for my own good. i am not judgemental and i tend to shy away from most people in my life. not a lot of people know this about me but i love to draw and write. i can draft a ten tiered cake design in less than an hour and make it in less than five hours. i got blamed for the murder of my uncle but i didn't go for jail for it. my father did. i hate my father, he left when i was young a lot to go fight in the military. he was a tough man and would beat my mother sometime's, he also cheated on her tons. i feel the guilt of my actions everyday. the guilt eats me alive most days and i find myself being depressed. i also put up way too many walls and i don't trust easily, heck i don't trust at all. i am also currently engaged to my life long pen pal ashleigh, she's my everything and my rock through this all. this is my main personality, the one i always come back too."
JOHN: "i'm john a 21 year old from the heart of new york. i have lost every job i have tried to obtain, i don't have much to my name. hell, i don't even know how i get money in my bank account. my mother and father had high expectations of me, i always disappointed them.. up until i ran away. i didn't like the way they pulled me left and right. i just wanted to be free --so right after highschool graduation i moved to los angeles where i remained up until now. i don't put my trust easily in people, i sleep with any girl whose willing to come home with me. lying has become something i used to rarely do to something i do nearly ten times a day. i have broken more girls hearts than i can count. i am the ultimate badass that girls like to lose their virginity to just to prove a point to their parents. i was their greatest mistake and their best night they ever had. i spend most of my time partying and drinking my life away."
CHORD: "i'm chord a 34 year old war veteran who returned from the line of fire due to a bomb explosion wiping out half my brain. when i got back, my wife cheated on me and now i'm divorced. my therapist and doctor have diagnosed me with post-traumatic stress syndrome. i don't believe that though, so what if i have suicidal thoughts? so what if i wake up from nightmares everynight? who cares that i even have insomnia? i certainly don't. this should be normal right? i have been told i am stubborn as a mule, i also have a very strong opinion on religion. i also am against gays, lesbians, and bisexuals. i am an old fashioned man who has always lived in los angeles. i currently live with my sister ashleigh and her daughter. i plan to get back to the front lines to represent my country. they say i've done my duty, but i believe i can do so much more."
