playing my guitar-- (colton)

[serena rae parker]

While it has been some time that she and Aaron had kissed, Serena still hadn't told Sadie yet. She hadn't even told her mom, and knowing her mom, Mrs. Parker would be mad that Serena had done something to hurt her sister and best friend, and she knew if she did, her mom would certainly side with Sadie, because that's what she always did whenever Serena and Sadie would fight. This is why she liked having Aaron as a brother-figure: sometimes he would listen, and let Serena vent. But, now it seems like she made everything super-weird, and she realized she could never get the bond they shared back.

After tending to her cat, Bailey, Serena thought she could use some fresh air, so she grabbed her guitar, and left a note for her mom and Sadie, telling them that she'll be back soon, and would be home for supper. After she locked the house, she made her way towards the recreation area, one of her favorite places in Los Angeles. After finding a good spot, she dug out her notebook, a pen, and decided to write a song. After what it seemed like several minutes, she was bored. She got out her cell-phone, and texted Colton, to see if he was interested in meeting her here. While she waited for his reply, she strummed her guitar aimlessly.

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[colton ryan mattis]

{ FEEL IT COMIN' IN THE AIR AND THE SCREAMS FROM EVERYWHERE }
I'M ADDICTED TO THE THRILL

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Colton had always been the quiet kind of kids, never speaking unless he had something to say. It was part of his charm, really. In situations where any normal person would be flipping shit, yelling, screaming, punching, generally going ape-shit, Colton was calm, cool, collective and very intimidating because of it. It was almost worse that yelling, to have a calm voice, threatening in a soothing voice. That quality of his helped a great deal with what he did for a living, intimidation at its finest. He faced the burliest of men, the most muscled and yet he had the ability to emasculate without changing the volume of his tone. Colton was triumphant with his skill, especially since it required the least amount of effort on his part. Nothing could get to him with this way of life, and that was something the soldier preferred. Show no weakness, it was pretty much drilled into his skull since he was introduced to his father. But despite adoring the fact that Colton was feared simply by his tactics, he often wondered how life would have been like if things were different. If specific events never occurred, would Colton truly be a Mattis or just another kid with a single mother working three jobs just to support them both.

What if his mother never died? Would he have become the monster he is now? Colton knew the things he had done and things will ultimately do are something that no regular person would ever do and not think that he was a monster. He accepted the fact that he was, it would have been terribly delusional if he had thought otherwise. If there was a God, they sure as hell seemed to over look at how malicious humans were. He doubted the presence of a higher being, if there was one, his mother wouldn’t have died, he wouldn’t have ever become what he has without severe earthly punishment, people would die, and pretty much every catastrophe would exists. What Colton Mattis did know was that what human had was now, picturing life after death was bogus, it was only a false comfort for the family of the dead or the dying; something to make death a little bearable. He didn’t understand why people were so afraid of death; it was an inevitable event, whether it is by a bullet, car crash or ‘natural causes’ whatever that meant. It was one of the few things that were unstoppable, in every sense of the word, for we all were one day closer to our deaths, so why fear such a thing?

However, death had a funny way of completely destroying sanity, of annihilating consistency, something every person need to remain functional. No matter how one could anticipate it, death was still such a shocking thing, sending ramifications through everything one does. It is particularly worse for someone who knows exactly when they will die, like cancer patients, with their doctors saying six month time lines are the best they have. Perhaps it was just better not to know when it was time, not to be able to pin down the little life we all have, that spontaneity take the wheel than have our breathes counted down. But life and death both are less than glamorous, dying with dignity is an illusion, just like that life after death theories, you don’t die with dignity, you live with it. There was a difference, a great one at that. But alas, humans are such a primitive species despite our technologic advances and how science has progressed. We are still savages, but civilized savages with tainted morals to boot. And he, Colton Ryan Mattis, was a part of that civilized savage group, every definition of it. How doomed was civilization, the human populace being capable of such brutality shocked him. Colton shook his head, throwing the thoughts aside as he checked on all his food, putting the eggs on a plate with bacon on the same without them touching. Food touching was very much disgusting. Call it obsessive compulsive, but he could never have food touching on his plate. Some things were exceptions, like potatoes and gravy, they had to touch, but if the gravy or potatoes touched the group of peas, the contaminated peas were never eaten. It just didn’t matter, he couldn’t do it.

It was then that his phone had gone off from his room. Colton had left his phone in his room so that it may charge and not die on him. It was something that he didnt really need to happen since that was his way of getting ahold of alot of people not like Colton knew alot of people but he still needed his phone at full battery. He groaned as he took a bite of his breakfast and looked at Mya that was sitting next to him wagging her tail. "Well might as well go see who it was" he said as he got up and rubbed her head as he headed up the stairs to his room. It had been Serena asking him if he wanted to meet her at the park. He smirked and sent back a text to let her know that he was on his way as soon as he put on some clothes. he sat down his phone and grabbed his black jeans, his white tank top and his black button up shirt. Colton had gotten dressed and grabbed Mya's leash and harness and headed down the stairs, on his way he grabbed his keys that were by the Garage door and whisled for mya to follow him. He opened the door and mya hoped in and sat down on the passanger seat and then colton sat down and started up the car and shut the door and opened up the garage door. He pulled out of the garage and headed down the road. He plugged in his iphone to the aux port and put on some music as he drove. It was something that was a must, he had to have music otherwise the silence would kill him.

He pulled into the park and shut off the engine of his Skyline and hooked up Mya to her leash and got out of his car and looked around trying to find out where Serena was at, He soon spotted her and smiled some as he seen her with the gutair and pulled mya slightly to where she would hop out of the car and follow him, He set his alarm on his car and walked down towards Serena and placed his hands over her eyes and softly said "Guess who?" he would wait till she guess but he was sure she would get it since Mya had jumped up next to her and began to lick her face.

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When she got a response from Colton, she smiled, and waited until he got here. Besides Aaron, Colton was like a brother to her, and she could go to him for anything. Best of all, he had a dog named Mya, who she loved dearly. Even though it seemed like she liked cats, she liked other animals, and dogs were one of them. She actually saw a dog named there named Mari, and she thought she was the cutest thing on four legs.

Suddenly, it got dark, and Serena felt something lick her face. At first, she started to panic, when the voice said "guess who", Serena knew it was Colton and Mya. "Is it Colton and Mya?"

she asked, smiling.

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[colton ryan mattis]

{ FEEL IT COMIN' IN THE AIR AND THE SCREAMS FROM EVERYWHERE }
I'M ADDICTED TO THE THRILL

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It had been some time since he had last talked to Serena and that was only due to his work and trying to get Mya trained to be a well behaved pit bull. He chucked some as he heard her say is it colton and mya. He sighed and removed his hands from her eyes and softly spoke "Damn you Mya, giving me away."[/b] he rubbed the dogs head and then lifted her up and placed her on the ground and took a seat next to Serena and rested his arms on the back of the bench and leaned his head back and closed his amber eyes. He looked to her and had that look of what is wrong i know there is something wrong look. He sat up some and rolled his head some to crack it. "So what is the matter?" he asked as he began to stroke Mya's back and then unhooked her from her leash and let her go sniff around. She would never go far and even if she did all Colton had to do was whisle and she would come back.

As colton sat there his phone went off he picked it up and listened to it and groaned, it was just a voice recording of some place that wanted money. He hung it up and looked back at serena, the last time they spoke about how she was in love with her sister's boyfriend and it didnt bother colton any, you cant help who you love, it is just nature.

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[serena rae parker]

Serena laughed. Before Colton had her down on the ground, she petted the dog. It was always said that pets were calming, and reduced your blood pressure. Her mom and Sadie always freaked out about Bailey, and whhen Serena tried to explain that pets were a good thing, her mom just told her to be quiet. When he asked her what was wrong, her laughter stopped, and she frowned. "Well, you know how I kissed Aaron, Sadie's boyfriend? I'm afraid to tell my mom about it, and she'll get mad, and tell Sadie, and then Sadie will be mad at me too, and I'll lose my best friend."

Serena spilled.

Sadie and Serena were sisters, and while Sadie was older, she and Serena were best friends, like some siblings were. But, now that Serena had kissed Aaron, she and Sadie's bond was going to crumble. And she didn't want that at all.

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credits; zie @ CAUTION!
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