{{ - - - BABY I'M BULLETPROOF <3 OAKLEY/CHORD

so we burst into colours ---------------------------------------- colours and carousels, fall head first, like paper planes & play ground games --------

ashleigh was well aware of the fact that oakley was a mess. she was aware of the multiple personality disorder yet didn't care and stayed around him. she had lost so many dearest people in her life that she had become immune the pain yet the fear of losing katie and oakley, would kill her. in her past, she had lost oakley once but she thought it was her fault and she wanted to make up for her mistake. she was going fix it and never let go oakley, no matter how much of a mess he turned into. there were days he would turn into john and run away from the house and come back as oakley and apologize. he would have guilt attacks and she would tell him that no matter what, she was going to be there with him. these days, however, he was being just oakley, which was comforting. she was glad to have no trouble caused these days.

oakley had walked in his shorts and ashleigh quickly turn around. this was like the first time he had walked on her when she was nearly naked. it was embarrassing but she decided not to over react and make it even more awkward. moreover, she trusted oakley. even if they were engaged for past three years and had known each other for a while, they didn't cross their limit, which was to do anything sexual until marriage. ashleigh was strongly against it and one of the reasons she trusted oakley so much was because he had always respected her decisions and never crossed the limit laid down. they would cuddle, sleep together and makeout but never beyond that. ash was aware how hard it was for boys to control their hormonal needs but oakley had a great control and ashleigh not only respected oakley but also trusted him with her life. there were times, ash was forced to think that john might be a womanizer, from the amount of drunk he would get and talk about girls and use a foul language and there were times Ash had seen texts from girls asking john to be at parties but she decided not to get to the depth to it. in her mind, it was pointless to judge oakley on the basis of john. he maybe a part of oakley but he wasn't real, and ashleigh knew oakley better than anything else to blame or doubt him. hot? well that's new. you have never called me hot before?
their kisses got deeper as she confessed her love, passionately pressing her lips onto his and deepening it but his kisses weren't full of love. there was a strong feeling of lust, hunger, need for more and more and his arms were wrapping around her so tightly, unlike those protected arms of oakley she was used to. this felt so foreign. he had never tried to skip a conversation regarding katie. she may not be their blood and flesh, their little creation but she was still their daughter. she gave him a questioning look that he answered by pushing her against the wall. her heart nearly dropped. wha-t-t-t is it love? she asked nervously. she didn't even know how to react to this. be scared and push him away or go with the flow and enjoy being so needed by him. there were so much of tension building, her hormones were being tested but her faith was always firm.. she had to remain strong. he was only making it harder as he kissed her and then her neck, sending chills to her spine. she was driven crazy by him. her eyes remained closed as she moaned on his touch but as he said the word 'sister', she was taken aback and she opened her eyes. sister? what? oakley.. is this some kind of a joke? are you ill? or are you drunk..? wait are you john now? so many possibilities coming to her mind and she pushed him away. don't. d-don't come closer to me. she said nervously, taking steps away from him and quickly buttoning her shirt. once done, she reached for the drawer and pulled it open. there were colorful tablets of him that would help to bring him back to himself. she picked them up and faced him. oakley, have these.. please.. take these.. eat these.. and i'll do anything.. anything you say, just take these.. she pleaded, nervously shaking, with one handful of tablets and other with a glass of water.

so we burst into colours ---------------------------------------- colours and carousels, fall head first, like paper planes & play ground games --------

Did he just say that she should be called sexy more often? her eyes widely opened. Ashleigh shuddered under his touch, those lustful kisses that he planted seductively onto her neck and had her pushed against the wall. she had been never attacked by oakley before this way. it was absolutely driving her crazy but her faith was strong so she pushed him away, not falling for the temptation. she had always trusted him not to force her into sex but tonight, she was scared and insecure. she maintained distance from him and started buttoning her shirt up. what could be wrong with him? was it john? it couldn't be. apparently, john didn't think ash was his type. moreover, he would always push her out of the way, not embrace her. Nor did he consider her to be his sister. she was confused but this was no time for confusion. she angrily asked him that what on the earth was wrong with him to which he said nothing. there was concern in his voice, that told her that he was still her oakley but he wasn't. he had never made her feel so insecure before. she wrapped her arms around herself. p-please -s-s-tay a-away from me.. d-d-on't come closer.. don't! she was shaking, tears rounding in the corner of her eyes. this was time for action. to bring him back to oakley she reached for the colorful tablets in the drawer and handed them to him but he threw them away from her hand and her heart skipped a beat, or nearly dropped to the pit. his hold was strong and had shaken her. she told her that he wasn't oakley but chord sherman, her brother. what? her heart began to race and she realized this must be a new personality. she had fallen to her knees as she trembled from the shock. p-please don't hurt me she pleaded, looking up into his eyes and slowly got up.
things were starting to make sense now. this was a new personality disorder that oakley had developed but never told ashleigh about it. how could he even develope them, question was, did his medication work at all for him? to her, it didn't seem so. she figured that chord had feeling for ashleigh, both sexual and filled with love but he also considered her to be his sister, which meant he was aware that it was wrong yet he was rebellious enough to ignore the sin and have the incesterous feelings. she decided to play along. the only way to bring back oakley was to make him have the tablets, luckily she had dozen of them still saved. so you feel for me, don't you? she asked, standing up by holding onto him and standing close to him, searching his eyes. i feel for you too, but you need to calm down love she said holding his face in her hands and tip toeing. i promise you'd feel better if you let me try, chord she carefully addressed by the name he referred himself. p-please.. don't you believe me? she asked, whispering in his ears as she pulled him closer, in her very minor but managable skills of seduction and started kissing his neck to his jawline and then softly kiss lips, clashing her tongue with his and quickly pulling away, leaving him asking for more. trust me those tablets will make you feel better, i promise she tried to convince him, wrapping her arms around his neck. listen to me once and i will do anything you say.. anything at all she said, looking deeply into his eyes and unbottoning her shirt again to reveal her body, to keep him distract and held by her charm. she walked back to the drawer and pulled the same tablets and held a glass of water towards him. here love, if you trust me, you will have these and then you can have me.. she said in husky tone, placing the tablets in his hands and helping him with drinking water.